37 Weeks Prego

Here I am at the beginning of my 37th week. My hospital bag is packed, the car seat is ready, baby's clothes are washed and put away (have been for over a month), the only thing left to do is clean my house. I am waiting for my nesting stage to happen (my burst of energy to clean like crazy), then this baby can come!

I do feel like he needs a little more time to grow before he comes... which is fine. I haven't felt him drop yet, so that is the other sign I am waiting for to let me know he'll soon be on his way out. I don't get any Braxton-hicks contractions or other warning signs. I have been so tired (and cranky (sorry!)) lately. I'm not super uncomfortable yet, though I can feel him moving all the time, and sometimes he gets a little rough and rowdy in my belly.

Bridger asks me all the time when the baby will be here. My answer for the past couple months is that he is waiting for it to get hot outside, and when the pools open, then he will come. Our outdoor pool at Lifetime opens this weekend... I hope he knows that his big debut is close!

I think Sunday would be a wonderful day to have him. 5-25 seems like a good birth date, and it would be most convenient if I went into labor when Devin is home. This weekend would be about the same time I would have had Myra. But honestly, so far I don't have any idea when he might come. He might continue waiting it out until his due date... but I sure hope not! I don't think I am mentally prepared to wait another three weeks.

I know it is logical, but it is really hard for me to imagine getting a baby out of this. Another little Bridger or Myra will join our family soon... a little boy that soon, I'm sure, I won't be able to imagine how life was without him. I know there is a baby in my belly... I feel him moving all the time. But I can't see him. Maybe I've just had terrible indigestion the last nine months (okay, not possible, I've heard his heart beat... we had the ultrasound...) It is such a crazy concept to me. Yes, I am ready to be done with my pregnancy. I'm ready to feel normal again (which won't happen right away... I know). And then I think about actually having a baby, and bringing him home.  I know it won't be easier, but at least then I can see and love and hold the little baby who is making all the work. I know the sleepless nights I am having now are just preparing me for many more sleepless nights after he comes. Then the nursing, the changing, the wailing. The can't get anything done stage will come. But not being pregnant... the idea sounds so wonderful! Having a new baby... the idea seems so fantastic! (And tiring, so very tiring when I try to really remember all that goes into it.)

My friend Jenna related to me her sister's experience... Her first two kids came early. So she thought  her third child would of course come early as well. Her mom flew out early, no baby. Her mom flew home, no baby. A week after her due date, here comes baby. AAah! The waiting would kill me. The story makes me nervous. What if??

Please baby, please remember to be good to your mama. Bridger and Myra are eager to meet you! I am eager to hold and love you! Your dad is eager to be past the labor! Really, the sooner the better!
Sincerely, your eager family.